It never gets easier

We lost one of our own last year and it hurts so much, they're just always there
Just waiting on the PM results from Shell right now, didnt sleep very well at all as we're both so worried if we did something wrong.
Before we put him in the freezer, we let Izzy say goodbye to his friend. For the first time he came and sat on the chair arm, looked at Billy for a while, then reached forwards and kissed him just under the eye, said "night night, kiss kiss" again then went away. That had us both bawling!
Izzy is doing okay, he's got company and he's looking to us more for comfort now. I feel so sorry for him
xxx